So, I know, it's been a really long time since I've written. I'm not really sure what exactly it is I wanted to say here, but I am feeling stressed and currently a little sad, so I thought I'd write to get my feelings out. Of course, I could do this in my journal where no one would ever read it, but I've already done that and it just didn't rid me of the urge.
I guess I should just say a lot has changed since I last posted. Something's changed that I was kind of counting on...well...not changing. It's helped me to learn something though. Actually multiple things. I've learned that best friends don't turn their back on you, no matter how whiny you are. I've learned that maybe we need to be patient to find happiness. I have learned that life doesn't always go as planned. I learned that we should never EVER take anything for granted, because you never know how long something will last. I have learned that God is there. He has been there for me as I've struggled with feelings of abandonment, betrayal, and confusion. He's helped me realize that things aren't as dark as I thought they were. Most importantly, He has given me hope.
When things first change it's hard to see a silver lining, but through much prayer and even fasting, I am coming to realize that there is a lot of good that can come out of any bad situation. So I guess that's what I wanted to share. I want anyone that's reading this to know that life is hard.
Dancers get foot surgery.
Straight A students get their GPAs ruined.
People you love sometimes disappoint you.
But that doesn't mean life is over, and it doesn't mean things won't get better, because they will. As hard as it is to see through the rain and the darkness, there's always light, and eventually that light will become completely bright and beautiful. The Savior has paid the ultimate price for every single hurt that this life has to throw at us. There are times that this hurt is incidental, but there's other times that hurt is introduced so that we can have a chance to learn and improve. We all have an awful lot to be grateful for. That's all I need to say right now.
